The Greatest Fucking Genius of All Time (patrick) wrote,
The Greatest Fucking Genius of All Time

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If there's something inside that you wanna say
Say it out loud it'll be okay
I will be your light
I will be your light
I will be your light
I will be your light

I Need Love, yeah
I Need Love

Trying to sit here and fill out applications. I want a job. I really do. But I always get stuck. This is my problem. I need to push myself harder. It's not that I don't want to, but that I'm afraid of the result. This fear keeps me from moving on. I understand this. I am trying to fight it now. It's just so much easier to look at the computer screen. It's so much easier to distract myself with livejournal, with email, with aim, with video games, with yard work, with contact juggling, with anything besides this. And I enjoy these distractions and it's not like they are really a bad thing in themselves. These things all have their place, I just like putting their place in the way of the things I'm afraid to do.

I'm struggling.


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