March 28th, 2006


Never before have I cried because of grief.

I'm still in a state of shock about the whole thing. It was nice to see my friends yesterday for a short time, but I'm definitely going to need to be around more people this week. I had met Jeremy two or three times, strictly through parties, and had maybe met Deacon once but had heard of him by reputation more than anything else. These are people in the same social circle I am in. It could have been people that I know more personally. Never before have I felt so personally affected by random senseless violence. Never before have I cried because of grief.

The past six months of my life have been a waste of time and I regret this.

The world is just a small town, we all know how people like to get down.

Men with high self esteems make poor choices when it comes to risky sexual behavior.

Ah, DUH! I thought everyone knew that men with high self esteems get laid more by women with low self esteems. The men with low self esteems don't feel confident enough to close the deal most of the time and women with high self esteem are more likely to fall into a relationship.