October 11th, 2004

beard

Year in Review

I am one year older. How was the 23rd year of my life, in hindsight?

Well, I've kept the same job for one year now. Fast water heater company has had it's ups and downs, but I'm not quite ready to give it up yet. I feel like I have a couple more months there for sure, but something new does sound appealing. Maybe next spring, I'll find another job. As for now, it's just more sales experience and the call center experience. Maybe I can get a job that will be outsourced to India! Sounds pretty sweet to me.

The past year has been very stale one the love front. Aside from a couple dates here and there, nothing has really been worth mentioning. I really do want to turn that around, I'm getting older and it sucks being alone. I don't really want a relationship, per say, but being as distant as I have been is not fun. I think I need to be taking more risks when it comes to sex and love.

On the creative front, I've always been writing. I don't think my writing is particularly better compared to a year ago and I'm not in any way pumping out the great american novel here, but I do think I'm being a bit more coherent and my lexicon is always improving. I have recently been drawing more, although I don't really share that with you, I think it's fun and something may come out of that. Also, I have been playing music a little bit more. Tim got me and new viola bow for my birthday and with that will hopefully come the inspiration to practice that more. I'd like to start playing with a group sometime in the future.

My other personal interests have been changing quite a bit in the last year. Movies seem to have slipped in the interest, as well as video games. I just don't have the passion for either of them that I did a year ago. My interest in computers has faded a bit as well. I don't actively use linux and I barely know what's going on with my computer right now. It's a shame, really. The beer brewing thing is still a big interest, though. That's new in the last year. And I've been giving my music collection a lot more love recently, although there is a lot of music in there that I don't really care for anymore. That makes me want to flush out the old and get lots of new music.

I feel like I'm at a crossroads in my life. I'm really becoming detacted from my past a bit and I feel like I need to redefine who I am. I would like to become more of a musician. I would like to get more confidence in who I am and what I want. I would like to see more of the world and travel more. I would like to live somewhere else in the country.

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