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Year in Review

I am one year older. How was the 23rd year of my life, in hindsight?

Well, I've kept the same job for one year now. Fast water heater company has had it's ups and downs, but I'm not quite ready to give it up yet. I feel like I have a couple more months there for sure, but something new does sound appealing. Maybe next spring, I'll find another job. As for now, it's just more sales experience and the call center experience. Maybe I can get a job that will be outsourced to India! Sounds pretty sweet to me.

The past year has been very stale one the love front. Aside from a couple dates here and there, nothing has really been worth mentioning. I really do want to turn that around, I'm getting older and it sucks being alone. I don't really want a relationship, per say, but being as distant as I have been is not fun. I think I need to be taking more risks when it comes to sex and love.

On the creative front, I've always been writing. I don't think my writing is particularly better compared to a year ago and I'm not in any way pumping out the great american novel here, but I do think I'm being a bit more coherent and my lexicon is always improving. I have recently been drawing more, although I don't really share that with you, I think it's fun and something may come out of that. Also, I have been playing music a little bit more. Tim got me and new viola bow for my birthday and with that will hopefully come the inspiration to practice that more. I'd like to start playing with a group sometime in the future.

My other personal interests have been changing quite a bit in the last year. Movies seem to have slipped in the interest, as well as video games. I just don't have the passion for either of them that I did a year ago. My interest in computers has faded a bit as well. I don't actively use linux and I barely know what's going on with my computer right now. It's a shame, really. The beer brewing thing is still a big interest, though. That's new in the last year. And I've been giving my music collection a lot more love recently, although there is a lot of music in there that I don't really care for anymore. That makes me want to flush out the old and get lots of new music.

I feel like I'm at a crossroads in my life. I'm really becoming detacted from my past a bit and I feel like I need to redefine who I am. I would like to become more of a musician. I would like to get more confidence in who I am and what I want. I would like to see more of the world and travel more. I would like to live somewhere else in the country.

stronger, better, faster, smarter

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the_myth_eve
Oct. 11th, 2004 08:27 am (UTC)
Happy Birthday and yay[!] for another wonderful year for you!!


My aunt told me something once that really stuck in my head. She said that we gradually change every five years or so. That are interest sway and become a little different as we grown older. Its funny, but I see that happening me to now as well [going to be 25 in about five months] and maybe this is what is happening to you also.

and on the video game front I think I will always dig video games in some passive sort of way[haha!]. I am totally into playing Kingdom Hearts [blush] and the new X-men game. Woo hoo!

I think it would be neat to see some of your drawings, if you dont mind ever sharing them?
patrick
Oct. 11th, 2004 11:32 am (UTC)
That makes sense. I'm getting to the point where I'm getting the first real change in my tastes and interests and it's strange. I guess I just have to accept the changing.

I think with the movies and video games, I still like them and I always will. They just aren't as interesting as they once were.i wswantr to lick yuour balls

velvet
Oct. 11th, 2004 09:11 am (UTC)
Happy birfday Pat & My Sister!!
patrick
Oct. 11th, 2004 11:21 am (UTC)
yay!
trisloth
Oct. 11th, 2004 09:22 am (UTC)

happy birfday
patrick
Oct. 11th, 2004 11:22 am (UTC)
thanks!
forgotten_fish
Oct. 11th, 2004 04:24 pm (UTC)
Yeah. It is always good to try something new. Maybe moving is a good idea. And about the whole "taking more risks when it comes to sex and love." VERY good idea. Actually that's what keeps things interesting. It's all about the risks... but a lot of people fail to see that.
forgotten_fish
Oct. 11th, 2004 04:25 pm (UTC)
Oh, and Happy Birthday.
patrick
Oct. 12th, 2004 02:59 pm (UTC)
it's strange. i really love taking risks, but i'm a big chicken when it comes to relationships. i don't really understand why i am like that.
forgotten_fish
Oct. 12th, 2004 05:32 pm (UTC)
Commitment issues? It's cool. I'm scared to death of it too. It's kind of strange that I'm afraid of one of the most rewarding things.
patrick
Oct. 12th, 2004 06:39 pm (UTC)
It's not so much commitment, though. It's like a step before that. Like, I'm afraid of touching the other person, or I'm afraid of offending them by saying I like them.
forgotten_fish
Oct. 12th, 2004 09:49 pm (UTC)
I see. Well, you don't necessarily have to say up front that you like her. Just take your time and let stuff develope. I've found that the best relationships evlove more slowly and naturally. It's kind of hard to explain, though.

As for the touching... If she feels uncomfortable, she'll either show signs that she is... or just slap you. But usually when you're in the position to touch, chances are she invited you to in some way.
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