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Beautiful Girl

Her face demanded attention. The angle of her nose and the shape of her face made one think of royality. She was wearing black framed glasses that had a slight cat eye shape to them. It complimented her face and make her look sophisticated, reminding me of a librarian or a successful business woman.

She was tall and skinny. Her long blonde hair went halfway down her back, right to where her shirt wrapped around her. It was a hot pink shirt, that was kinda soft and poofy looking. It constantly teases the eye with the slight outline of her body, all the while, not giving that much info. It cuts off at the waist and there in about an inch space between the shirt and her skirt, which is a short jean skirt.

She is hanging out with a large group of guys and no other women. All the guys love having a beautiful woman with them, and she loves the attention. Whenever there is a lull for a moment, she stands there and looks like she holding back sadness. This is a girl who doesn't have a lot of self esteem and depends on those around her to help.

I was sitting in a booth with some friends. They are talking about relationships that are gone and failed and are extracting any important life lessons from the failures. It's an interesting conversation, but not one that I am very involved in. I lean in to hear the conversation, but more importantly, I just want to know her a little bit more. I can't hear her speak because of the bar noise and I strain to get any information I can.

I watch her move around and hang from guy to guy in her group. I watch her for hours and she never looks at me. I wonder if she is aware of me watching her. I wonder if I am bothering her or if she likes the random attention. I try and divert my attention to other things: my friends, other pretty girls, the music that is playing. Nothing is quite as interesting to focus on.

We've been there for two hours and my friends are tired. The noisy bar is very draining and it's not like the conversation they were having was easy to deal with. The exhaustion is obvious now. I am not done, though. The bar is so crowded now that it's hard to walk anywhere. There is a steady flow of people coming into the bar and we are by far the minority because we are leaving. I drive my friend back to her house and think about maybe going back to the bar. I don't have any money on me, though. If I had some way of buying drinks still, I may have never left the bar in the first place. As things were, I just accepted my fate and went home.

That night, my dreams were haunted with sex. My imagination was filled with images of beautiful people having all sorts of fun and me right in the mix. I woke up horny and uncomfortable.

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tyrven
Aug. 26th, 2004 01:34 am (UTC)
<sigh>...

I like this post. But it makes me sad.
patrick
Aug. 26th, 2004 01:04 pm (UTC)
it is a bit sad
yea, I liked the writing too. It's pretty personal, though. I am so shy about personal posts like this.
tyrven
Aug. 26th, 2004 01:51 pm (UTC)
Re: it is a bit sad
I was surprised by that, how personal it is. I find that people often speak in really abstract terms on LiveJournal, so while it's an "open diary" it's really pretty distanced from concrete emotions and circumstances. It really impresses me when people go out on the limb and talk about something more relevent to their experience.
patrick
Aug. 26th, 2004 02:17 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you noticed. :)
I wrote it at work a week or two ago. I had been sitting on it, not sure if I wanted to share it or not. Friends only works though.
patrick
Aug. 26th, 2004 04:14 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm glad you noticed. :)
Cancel that. I'm making it public.
roark
Aug. 26th, 2004 04:12 pm (UTC)
I assume this really happened?

I've had this kind of experience on various occasions. It's the weirdest thing because I feel excited and devastated at the same time.
patrick
Aug. 26th, 2004 04:15 pm (UTC)
Yea, this is true.
majikul_hoboe
Aug. 26th, 2004 05:22 pm (UTC)
wow, pat, thats really beautiful
patrick
Aug. 26th, 2004 05:34 pm (UTC)
thanks.
sunflowrgoddess
Aug. 29th, 2004 08:09 pm (UTC)
This is good writing. Period. And you're handsome. That's all I have to say about that.
patrick
Aug. 30th, 2004 02:58 pm (UTC)
Thanks! After a bit of editting, I got it to be somewhere that I was happy with it to the point that I could share it.
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